I'm bored...
not rly sure why...

thoughts bouncing around in my tiny head... why do I always end up hurting ppl? including myself?

My disbelief in words keep growing strnger and stronger... it's so annoying having to admitt, I hurt someone whom I might have care for, or might not have cared for, either way I keep ending up hurting them somehow...

I used to saythat ppl always leaves impression wherever they go... But I don't leave just the mere impression, I also leace scratchmarks sometimes even scars...
Eternal and unchangeble...
I wish I could change, but appearently I never do...

I don't know why ppl never listens when I warn them...
why do they tiny boys still think they might be able to tame the feline and to keep it locked in a cage...

thought I feel trapped in a cage right now, it's more a cage of my own recentment then a cage made of promises...

Why don't they hear it... the things said inbetween the lines... those things obvious to every one else...

Why can't I change? why can't ppl learn to tame me the way I want them to...

I might be able to settle down...
but everytime I thought I was ready to do so...
the old string comes prouncing along asking me to join the game again... Asking me to be what I thought I'd stop being...

hmm, and they couldn't ever try to time it better, could they?
just my usual luck I guess...
once I think, Hey lets stay single and be free to date who ever I want to they pop up from the past... behind the corners of my safe house and they start to removing the walls so properly made to keep em outside...

I think I'm just gonna give up!
I'll just stay where I am... and perhaps I'll miss something fun and exciting, but hey It's my choice, isn't it? and if I say so, then it should be so...? right?

*waves*
well wish me luck I guess...